The Limits

I know that I'm breaking my own rules by posting this..

But if I don't write this I'm gonna lose my sanity..

You know something called 'limits'?

Well.. recently I have reached my limits..

It hurts so bad to the extent that I can feel pain the pain even when I'm trying to breath..

I dunno.. since I'm borned I had always been a tolerant type..

People release their anger on me..

Even my own family..

I've never receive like even the tiniest respect from anyone..

Nobody says they are sorry and all that shit to me..

It's always me that had to be the one to say sorry..

Even when I'm the victim..

I don't wanna hurt people's feeling by rebelling..

But if nobody even cares about how I feel..

what's the point of me being an 'emotionless' kid that doesn't get mad ..

I don't wanna do this tolerating thing anymore..

It's so hurtful..

I dedicate the this song to anyone that's willing to be a listener..

"Don't Wanna Try"

(oooo)...don't wanna try don't wanna try (try try)

(oooo)..don't wanna try no more

(ooo)..don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try

[Verse 1]

i can't believe u had the nerve to say the things u said

they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship

i can't believe it ..4 years gone down the drain

oh how i wish things would of happened so differently

i try'd to save it so many times but you still couldn't see

u kept insistin' and resistin' that u would not fall again

and now ur tryin' to tell me that ur sorry

and ur tryin' to come back home

ur tellin' me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor

but baby i

[Chorus]

don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more

u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door

don't wanna try don't wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things

that hurt so bad to where we both begin to cry

don't wanna try don't wanna try i 'bout just had enough its been a rough road

baby just let it go

don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more

tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love

[Verse 2]

u and i had many conversations on the telephone

talks about one day we having a place of our own

wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table

but all of that just seems so far away from me

had to wake up face reality

it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through

and now ur tryin' to tell me that ur sorry

and ur tryin' to come back home

u tellin' me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor

but baby i

[Chorus]

don't wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more

u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door

don't wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things

that hurt so bad to where we both begin to cry

dont wanna try don't wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road

baby just let it go

don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more

tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love

[..fading into beat]

(don't wanna try don't wanna try)

(don't wanna try no more)

(don't wanna try don't wanna try..oo)

(don't wanna try don't wanna try)

(don't wanna try no more)

(don't wanna try dont wanna try don't wanna try no more ooo)

This song is 'kinda' similar to what I'm feeling right now..

Hello? Goodbye!

assalamualaikum!

apa khabar!

anyonghaseyo!

hello!

Guten Tag!

Bonjour!

God dag!

Haha! I found this site where it posts how to say hello in many languages!

So tomorrow is going to be the start of school..*sigh~*

So, that means.. 

no more modem=nointernet=no blogging=no you tube=no family outing=no more fooling around

well, basically.. what I'm trying to say is.. I'm going to abandon this blog for some time..

Maybe I'll start reposting after the BIG EXAM is over..

Since this maybe my last post for awhile.. I'm gonna put a lotttttttttttt of pictures...yayaya!

PRESENTING:

 2PM 

Members:

Jaebeom

Junho

Chansung

Woo Young

Taec Yeon

Junsu

And..last but not least.. NICHKHUN!!

Big Bang

Dang, why is Big Bang's picture coming out so small?

Muahaha! Why the tons of picture?

It's my small parting gift(for a looong while) for my friend bloggie!!! ^____^

...o-O,,,,

muaha!

Just a few days before the gate of suffering reopens..

what about my relationship with work from hell(a.k.a homework)?

nah.. haven't touch it yet..

I mean it's not THAT interesting now is it?

Huh*with an arrogant look* See if I will manage to finish this draggish work..

And now I am going to start talking about korean related thing, read it or leave it people..

If you bothered to listen to the first song in my playlist.. there is this group called F.T Island..

Did you hear how the vocalist sang..

It was like wooooow!!

His voice is so so so cooooool!!~

I'm in love with his singing..

I'm not going to bother putting his picture here..

There will be Miss A condemning me in HER blog if I do so..

My korean name!! Yay(??)

Muaha!

Aku ada baca blog Zurina kan.. Zurina ada nama korea..

So, aku macam..uwaa!!~ nak gak..

Aku pun google-ing la..

And then I found this website:

KOREAN NAME GENERATOR

pfft..but excitement doesn't last long...

This is what I got:

1. Park Ha Ah (Last name first, then fist name)

2. Kim Ha Ra (First name, then last name)

Uwaa!!~ It sounds bullshit..

And then I found another way to find out your korean name

All credits go to this person

I. Surname : Korean surname is the last number in your year of birth.

- 0: Park

- 1: Kim

- 2: Shin

- 3: Choi

- 4: Song

- 5: Kang

- 6: Han

- 7: Lee

- 8: Sung

- 9: Jung

II. Middle name : is your month of birth .

- 1: Yong

- 2: Ji

- 3: Je

- 4: Hye

- 5: Dong

- 6: Sang

- 7: Ha

- 8: Hyo

- 9: Soo

- 10: Eun

- 11: Hyun

- 12: Rae

III. Name : is your date of birth .

- 1: Hwa

- 2: Woo

- 3: Joon

- 4: Hee

- 5: Kyo

- 6: Kyung

- 7: Wook

- 8: Jin

- 9: Jae

- 10: Hoon

- 11: Ra

- 12: Bin

- 13: Sun

- 14: Ri

- 15: Soo

- 16: Rim

- 17: Ah

- 18: Ae

- 19: Neul

- 20: Mun

- 21: In

- 22: Mi

- 23: Ki

- 24: Sang

- 25: Byung

- 26: Seok

- 27: Gun

- 28: Yoo

- 29: Sup

- 30: Won

- 31: Sub

Aha! Kalo ikut yang ni pulak.. nama aku:

Shin Ji Woo

I wonder if I say that this is my korean name to some korean maybe they will think that I am a boy.. pfft.. mungkin aku boleh tipu gender aku gunakan nama ni untuk masuk YG Entertainment ke, YJP Entertainment ke.... muahah! berangan je lebih..

Hrm? Kenapa tak SM Entertainment? Aku dengar ada banyak benda tak bagus yang ko kena buat kalo kerja kat sini..

Josh, how do you look like?

Uwaa!! Rajinnya aku berblogging hari ni..

Haha.. hari ni aku ada post something kat blog 360 days..

Kepada yang tak tahu linknya sini aku bagi:

360 days

haha..sori la kalo apa yang aku post bosan..

Aku punya bakat writing takde la sebesar gunung kan..

Entah dari mana datang nama Josh tu ntah..

Aku main type je..

Haha.. tapi ikut pengalaman aku, aku pernah baca satu manga ni yang menggambarkan watak Josh dia as someone really obsessed in taking care of his god son(main letak je aku..ntah wujud ntah tidak god son ni)

Erm.. tapi aku rasa watak Josh tu apa kata kita letak gambar..

Maksud aku kita bagi gambaran macamana rupa Josh kan..

Sebab dia imaginary character kan?

What do you think?

Letak la gambar saper-saper..

Haha.. tapi jangan suruh aku pilih sebab aku tak interested ngan western people sangat dah..(dulu aku minat Brendon Urie)..

Hrm.. tapi kalo asian boley je suroh aku pilih..

Omo!!~~ Chommal bitchoso(it's not a curse word..it means something like I'm going crazy)

Nichkhun-ssi!! Saranghae!!

Nichkhun is shipjeom manjeome shipjeom(10 points out of 10 points)

My darling black, you have come back...

Alhamdulillah.. aku punya phone dah dapat balik..

Haha..malu gak la kan.. semalam aku mencarut menyumpah sesuka hati dlm mesej-mesej yang aku hantar..

Aku rasa budak tu baca mesti kata ntah hapa-hapa aku ni..

Menurut mak aku, yang jumpa ni pakcik tua..

Dia cakap phone aku off sebab batteri dah habis..

Tapi setahu aku..aku baru caj phone aku semalam..

Kalo memori aku betul, aku masih ingat lagi yang aku ada nampak imej batteri full semalam..

Hrm..ntah la.. malas la nak pikir banyak..

Dah dapat balik dah kira bagus kan..

Nak jumpa orang jujur macam mencari gula dalam garam..

Alhamdulillah.. hidup penuh dugaan ni menandakan yang tuhan masih ingat pada kita..

muahaha!it's 2a.m now and this girls is still awake..

I was reading a manga and then guess what I found!!

The Land of No Homework and Exam(Hurrah?!)

Muahaha!

Hrm.. buaha!

Damn all the schoolwork.. pfft.. sorry but I still love to get new knowledge..

Why the need of homework?

WHY??

WHY??

Life is so fulfilling without homeworks..

Hah.. the bliss of nothing-to-do-ness..

Isn't it just great..

Uwaa!!

I wish I live in a country where homeworks are banned..

Exams are a taboo!!

Woohooo!!

I'll do anything to live there!!

Omo..it's just.... total happiness..

NIchkhun-sshhi saranghae!!~~

Ngaha..I don't care about what people think anymore..

I am a normal fangirl!!

Yay!

Mencari kebaikan..

Owh ya!!

Kawan-kawan tengok kat tepi tuh!!

Ada dua playlist..

Well..

Aku nak gak kamu semua mendapat kebaikan melawat blog aku nih..

Bukan hanya hiburan semata kan..

Astaghfirullah..

Ni.. antara lagu nasyid feveret aku yang takde kat playlist..

Damai Yang Hilang - Nowseeheart
01 NowSeeHeart - Damai.MP3

BIG BANG GOING JAPANESE!

OMG!!

Daesung looks sooooooooooooooooo cute!!

OMG! I LOVE YOU BIG BANG!!

TOP kinda gives a manly vibe..and he looks beautiful(?!)

G-Dragon...looks kinda gay..*runs away from fangirls*

I'm sorry but it kinda look like it to me..

In my perspective..

All long haired man are gay..

Seungri looks like a pure and innocent boy(ngaha..not until you see his strong baby mv)

Tae Yang.. is coooool..

Selsema pindah!

Haha!

Aku baru bangun daripada evening nap aku..

Seriously..

Aku sebenarnya aku tak suka tido petang..

Nanti macam ada satu blockage kat otak aku yang membuat kan aku rasa macam..

Budak blur-blur..

Hah?

Apa?

Kuang hajo!

Ko cakap aku memang blur pun?

Takpe..takpe..

Weh mintak maaf ya seri..

Aku mendelete blog tu tanpa permission!

Gomen!!~~ Biyanata!!~

Aku tetiba rasa macam malas nak tulis lagi..

Aku pergi rumah orang kahwin pagi tadi..

Fuih.. ramai betul orang yang kahwin cuti-cuti ni..

Aku yang tengah selsema ni macam biasa kena heret ngan tuan besar sana sini ikut dia..

Alhamdulillah.. Dugaan-dugaan..

Tapi takpe la..

Fangirls, adorable or terrible?

You know what..

I just realised today..

Fangirls are so scary..

I mean they go 'Oppa!!Oppa!!' all the time they see their idols..

It sorts of give me goosebumps..

I mean..

Oppa means 'abang' in bm..

There's no way I would call Daesung as 'Abang Daesung'

Eww...

Ok.. but I do shout like a fangirl..

Haha! Guess I'm a freak myself..T_T

Did you know the fangirls of suju( they call themselves as ELF or something) made a girl killed herself?

They sent her terrible messages..

It was just because that girl took a picture with a member of suju..

Don't know if it's true or not..

Well what the hell..

I'm a fan too..

Girls these days are so scary..

But there's no need to worry!

I am a safe fan!!

Owh here's some interesting pictures to share:

p/s: Haha, now I'm craving for coffee..drool..

B-Ging

Ngaha!

Dah pukul 12.42am..

Manusia apa la yang masih berblogging macam aku ni..

Hampeh nak mampuih..

Haha!

Aku nak citer la sikit kan..

Aku semalam ada amik iq test..

Tapi aku rasa keputusan dia tak valid la sebab aku tengah pening-pening masa jawab..

Tapi walau macamanapun aku berjaya dapat markah yang agak normal la..

127..

Haha..

Memalukan..

Bila dapat result tu aku macam bangga gak la kan..

Tapi jap lagi aku tengok comment..

Fuih.. Average orang sumer dapat lebih 130..

Ada orang comment cam ni 'I got a 167..but that's ok'

Aku dah macam..

~!@#$%^&*()

Kalo tak nak bagi kat aku la kan..

Senang sikit aku nak lulus chemistry..

Tapi hari ni aku dah buat balik iq test tu..

Aku dapat 131!!

Yay!

Walopun ni hanya average..

Tapi aku akhirnya berjaya!!

Ala jangan la kutuk aku..

Owh ya..

Aku tak buat lagi kerja kursus add math...

Tolong?

kEHIDUPAN BOSAN AKU..

well, well well..

dah lama aku tak post something..

yorobun!!~~

rindu aku tak??!!

err..

rasa macam ada benda yang tak kena..

ngaha!

cuti-cuti ni macam biasala!!

berdating dengan aku punya computer!!

ngaha!

wait..

I'm not a psycho ok?

I did some korean-whore-ing using the internet..

well, 

I watched daesung battling some guy named nich kun(sorry if the spelling is wrong..>___<)

and read about 1000+ pages of a manhwa!!

Ngaha!

Korean is the best..

Their entertainment IS  so addicting!!

Tapi tahu tak aku baru jumpa ada satu kumpulan ni nama dia 2pm or something..

mereka perform kat music bank yang ditayang kat kbsworld..

muaha!

I'm hooked again!

It's true, I''m a koreanwhore!

Satu pengajaran yang aku belajar adalah:

Jangan kutuk satu-satu benda tu lebih-lebih nanti ko akan jadi terikat macam aku..

Maybe aku dah kena sumpahan..

TOLONG!!TOLONG!!!!!!!

2PM

SHINee